It's a new year and I'm already exhausted. My husband had such an awful work schedule. They have all the lower end employees take a few hours each on each holiday. Well all the holidays fell on my husband's normal days off, so he worked for almost 2 weeks straight. I was so lonely. Sometimes I miss him so much it hurts to breath.
Living life this way is just exhausting. As bed time rolls around I don't even know where to find the strength to put everyone to bed. They're all dressed in their pj's and everything. For some reason that last and final step of placing them in bed and tucking them in seems so daunting to do by myself.
I get really tired of being frustrated. Yes, I get frustrated with getting frustrated. Every time I start to get frustrated with something I try to tell myself, "Just stop! We're not going there remember?"
Well my New Years resolution is to work on being a better mom. Boy I love babies so much! I really do! It just brings me so much joy to watch them grow, to see their smiles and hear their laughs. I wish I was a more patient mother so that I felt like it was a good idea to have more kids because I really do enjoy them! I have a lot of great mother's in my life who's example I can try to follow. They all have traits I'd love to incorporate, so that is definitely something I want to work on.
And another resolution is to get back on the diet. The whole month of December was a bust. I simply must get back on track. I'm also hoping I can start an exercise plan as well.
Happy New Years Everyone! Here's to a new year of struggles, triumphs, joys, losses, love, laughter and much more.
Ugh. That was how Levi's summer was working both his route and the night guys route. He was on-call EVERY weekend and EVERY holiday and worked days and nights. He was never home and always tired and overwhelmed. It was awful on so many levels!
ReplyDeleteGood luck making it through. Just remember to be GRATEFUL for the time you manage to have together and ENCOURAGE Craig - it helps, though it's really hard for everyone when dad's not home.
Yeah, what is it about bedtime? It's sometimes so the last straw. It seems like children can sense when you are worn out and choose those days to have a hard time falling asleep. Oh but when they do fall asleep *sigh!* :)
Good luck with the resolutions. I figure that as long as our goal is to be a better mom, we're headed in the right direction and the Lord will fix whatever disasters we make - at least that's what I'm banking on :)