As many know, who read this blog, I am a member of the LDS Church. And, as a member of this church, I try to make frequent trips to our temples. Right now, my husband and I, try to go once a month. We consider temple work to be a very important part of our religion. There we make covenants and promises with the Lord, and our families. We perform marriages. These marriages are not just "till death do us part", but they are meant to last for eternity. And we also perform work for the dead. Those who have not been baptized, or had the opportunity to be sealed together for time and all eternity. There is quite a bit I could talk about here, but hopefully this brief explanation is enough to lay the ground work for the story I really want to share.
Almost 4 years ago my husband and I were married. On our wedding day we made promises, and were sealed together for time and all eternity. But, as wedding days go, it was all kind of a blur. Which is why I enjoy attending other weddings. For some reason, without all the nerves and anxiousness, I can better appreciate the promises I made with my husband, and with the Lord, when I see others making those same promises.
Well my husband and I have hit some bumps in the road. Have I wanted to leave? No, I wouldn't say want. There were just times that I wondered if I should. And there were times that I thought, "Either way it's going to be hard. And if things don't start to change, leaving may give me a chance to get back on track."
My mind wondered to the what if's. What if I had dated my husband longer? What if I had waited for another guy to come along? What if. . .what if. . .what if?
I'm still devoted to my husband, but there are times were being devoted only means you're hanging in there, by a thread.
We set aside our night for the temple. Thanks to our special, new calender. And we got a sitter and made our trip. It was late, and we were the last session. I told my husband I wanted to do sealings-- this means that we act as others, who have passed on, who did not get the opportunity to be sealed together here on Earth. I like sealings because my husband can be by my side the whole time. I'm still not entirely sure of myself at the temple. It's still pretty new to me, and we haven't made a good effort at going in the past. So I really like to have my husband there to guide me through it all. We sat down, and they began. The first couple knelt at the alter. As they spoke the words, my heart swelled and my eyes teared up. They hit me just right there. I heard the promises I had made to my husband. And I knew that what we had was more important than anything here on Earth. That those things that troubled me were not worth sacrificing my marriage. What was important was to stay devoted and true to my husband. That we need to keep our family together. And we will be blessed for doing so.
I know with all my heart that the LDS church is true. Not just because it opened my eyes, and I was given a revelation and some good advice. No, it's because that night, when I received that revelation, I felt whole again. And I can not describe how wonderful that feels. Everything was made clear. All that had been clouded up in my mind was gone. It was all so simple now. And that is how I know it's true. I don't have to wonder, or guess, if what I am doing, or living is right.
I know my church is not everybody's church. I know that there are some that read this blog who are not LDS. My religion may seem foreign to some. I don't expect everyone to accept or believe every aspect of it. But just know I am a person who believes in Christ and Heavenly Father. Who lives a religion that is good, and that provides many services. I believe our church has done many great things on this Earth, and I believe that it has helped me become a person that does many great things as well.
I am also a person who is grateful for her family. They are all amazing people, who do amazing things. And they all would drop anything to help someone in need. I'm thankful for my husband, who gives me an understanding that most would not. And I am grateful for my children. They are so wonderful in so many ways. And they are so good to forgive their mom when she has acted badly.
Thank you to those who read!
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