One or Two? That is the question

Well ladies who have twins, I am pleased to tell you that I can give you an official comparison between carrying one baby as opposed to two.

Yes, that's right, we are expecting our third, and we found out today that it is only our third- not our third and fourth. The Doctor told us this morning that he only found one heartbeat and that it sounded healthy.

Believe it or not we actually planned this pregnancy. That was of course before we knew my husband would be losing his job, I'd have to go back work and we would be without insurance. We are managing to get along though.

Although we have the added stresses we were still happy to find we were pregnant. Sadly my happiness only last until about week 8.

I found I had a little more energy then I did with the twins, but I still had a depression- that seems to be a norm that comes along with my morning sickness. Luckily the depression passed and I now find myself head over heals in love with my boys again, which makes being pregnant much easier.

I wasn't as sick at first. In fact I was still able to run two miles every morning up until 7 weeks. However, unlike with the twins, when I reached 12 weeks I still felt sick and wasted. Of course, that may have to do with the two little bumpkins I have to chase around.

Just in case you couldn't guess, being pregnant with two 12 month old babies in the house is not an easy task. Not even close. I feel bad for all that my husband has to take on, but I am seriously wiped out. Luckily I married a very good man.

I do often find myself wallowing in self pity many a times. "Why do I have to go through having no insurance while being pregnant again?" "Why couldn't it just work out so I could stay home?" "What on earth are we going to do with three kids, and no employment?"

It's a struggle everyday to try and push out the negative and try to put my faith in Heavenly Father.

Even so I'm sure I wouldn't want to trade my trials with anyone, and I'm sure no one is standing in line to trade with me :)

At least I should be able to think of some good posts to spill out with this pregnancy!