I'm bored! So bored that I anxiously wait for my children to wake up from their naps- I think it's because taking care of them makes me feel constructive and I don't exhaust myself be say, mopping the floor. One Saturday I was upset that there was no laundry to fold- once again I feel like I'm doing something and it takes less effort then other things. Seriously it's pathetic how bored I am. And being bored is not a good way to get through pregnancy. I remember that last excruciating month of pregnancy with the twins all too well.
It would appear that this summer is going to be even longer then I thought, and when my husband informed me that his job is commission pay only, and that it requires him to work 60 hour weeks for the remainder of the summer I got a little perturbed.
So I spent all of Friday an the verge of having a breakdown. My husband was going to be gone 6 days a week for 10 hours each day leaving me to keep the household together while in my third trimester. Cleaning house is one thing, but now mowing the lawn and yard work would be on my chore list. And all those plans I had to try and fight off summer boredom- going to Bear Lake, having a garage sale, going to the Zoo, refinishing some furniture, going to water resorts and playing in my parents pool- were all flying out the window. I know family and friends would be willing to help, and the help is always nice. But there is nothing that can replace the support of your husband.
Needless to say my Friday did not go well. I spent way to long mowing a very overgrown lawn. When I was done I was in much need of a shower, but of course the boys woke up right as I walked in the house. I quickly got them some lunch and chocolate milk and hopped in the shower knowing they were safe. Ahh! Now that I'm all cleaned up it's time to see what damage the boys did. It was worse then I imagined. Gold fish all over the floor and my big boys cup of chocolate milk spilled everywhere- there comes a time when juice boxes and cups with straws need be replaced by sippy cups, we have come to that time. I got way too mad at the boys and took them down to sit in there crib- to think about what they'd done ;)- and then yelled at the dog for not obeying my order to lick up the spilled milk. At this point two things were obvious to me: I needed to not take my anger out on the children and the dog and I needed to get out of the house. So in an effort to save this disastrous day we took Wendy's to a pond and we fed some ducks some moldy bread. Well, while we were at the pond a kind gentlemen needed some gas. I wanted to help but didn't want to let him in the car so I arranged to bring the gas back to him. While making these arrangement the dog got out and barked at the man's little boy. With all the confusion, and me being flustered and nervous, I drove off without the dog in the car. Yes I now had a lost dog on my hands. I called my parents, which was my mistake. I vented everything to my mom that I had been holding in all day.
*Before I go on I must explain that all the men in my life have an annoying trait. According to others they can do no wrong. I often hear, "I just can't believe- insert Craig or the twins here- would act like that! This makes venting about them really hard because no matter what my feelings are they are insignificant because my husband treats me so well and my babies are so good. Granted yes he does and yes they are, but humans are humans and we all have flaws- and these can make any one of us hard to deal with at times.*
Well all I got in return was to be told how I needed to be supportive of my husband.
Well my husband and I have worked things out. I know how much we need this job, and that it works well in its own little way. I didn't really know if there was an answer that would make me happy, but I just wanted my feelings on the subject to be validated for a moment.
Anyway. . .my husband did end up working out a smaller work schedule. And I had a good talk with my sis-in-law about the pressures of having a husband gone all the time- my brother was working two jobs and going to school. And we also found a new solution to our boredom. Our plan is to get together once a week at each others houses and have a cleaning party of sorts. We'll help each other clean, and enjoy each others company. Tonight is the first trial. If anyone else is struggling with summer boredom you're welcome to join us.
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