*Warning! Emotional Pregnancy Break Down!*
A few months ago, when I learned we were expecting another boy, I came to terms with the fact that I may be a mom of just boys. I was fine and happy about it. And almost convinced myself that I didn't need to have a girl. But the truth is I want a girl!
I want to give her that perfect name I have picked out. I want my husband to have his "Daddy's Girl". I want to find and make her cute hair pieces and frilly tutus. I want to watch her get dressed up for prom, and I want to see her on her wedding day. People joke about adoption, but I want my girl. I want to know what my girl will look like.
I think some people are under the impression that me wanting a girl means I don't want my boys. I love my boys, and nothing compares to a mother/son relationship. They're my babies. My little princes. It isn't about being a mom to just boys. It's about coming to terms with the fact that I may never be a mom to a girl of my own.
They say there are other pregnancies. I can try again, but do you know how exhausting that sounds when you are in the 8th month of pregnancy?
I wouldn't trade my boys for anything. And me and my husband both love and adore them. But we know a little girl would hold a different place in both our hearts, and I just would really love to have that.
*Sorry for my emotional spew! Thanks to those who read!*
Expectations and desires can be a very difficult thing when uncertainty and chance rules the day! It is nice having had a boy and a girl already, so I don't have to dread the all boy or all girl scenario. Just Saturday I talked to a friend that has five girls, a friend that has four girls, and a friend that is expecting her third girl - with no boys in sight. Wow! Maybe you could work out a trade :) Totally kidding!
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