Every Sunday Night I pile my kids in the car, after having dinner at my parents house, take a deep breath and prepare to start yet another week. Sometimes we go for a drive to hang on to our weekend for just a moment longer. The lovely weekend where the time is ours to do as we choose, instead of doing what we have to do.
This Sunday, I climbed in my car, my kids were with their Dad since it was Father's Day, and suddenly my strength just left me. No deep breath would get me through this one. I just cried.
I hadn't realized how much strength it takes to face each week. I hadn't realized how taxing it can be.
Each Sunday I put on a brave face and try to face the hardships that will come. The hard ships of:
- carrying my 2 year old out to the car every morning and feeling him snuggle into my shoulder and wishing I could have just a moment longer with him.
- dropping my crying kids off at daycare and having to ignore their requests to stay with me.
- getting through another day of work
- coming home and caring for four kids and a house and hoping against hope I can have some quality time with them
-hoping I can get to bed before midnight.
- trying to be patient with my guy's opposite schedule and the lack of time we get together.
It isn't easy. It takes a great deal of strength each week. And boy do I feel it.
But its life, and feeling these things at least lets me know I can still feel. And it lets me see how strong I really am and how brave my kids really are to face it all with me.
So every week we continue to face every Monday.
Tricia,
ReplyDeleteI love hearing and seeing your stories on Facebook. I just wanted to comment that you are great with your words and feelings. I too was raised by a single mom and I am who I am today for that reason. Just remember your strength is the very thing each day that is shaping those boys to live in this tough world and they will become great men because of it. If I could I would love to leave you with a few Bible verses.
When you are overwhelmed:
Isaiah 40:31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk and not faint.
When you're tired:
Matthew 11:28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
When you need wisdom:
Proverbs3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. ( this one is one of my favorites)
Well hope this wasn't too out if the blue, the Lord has been pressing on my heart lately to respond to one of your posts so here it is. God Bless you and have a fabulous date night with your guy.
Amber Andreason(Danz wife)